July 2010
1 post
With a smile.
Life is short, fragile and precious.
Do remember to love, work, study, play with a smile on your face.
Love the people around you with all your heart, as everyone will have to leave someday. Love so that there are no regrets whatsoever when that very day comes.
People are born as like poles of a magnet, they never come together, and can never come together, unless a metal bar is put in between...
June 2010
2 posts
Going nuts.
Havent been posting much on this junk. The only place where you’ll see me writing anything close to a journal is here.
Been feeling like crap recently. I NEED MONEY. Having no money is a torture really. And yep, Been playing guitar and singing to finish up the time. Yep, and there’s some stuff i havent got used to yet. Guess i dont adapt that quickly.
And fuck you ppl, What so fun...
Sometimes.
Sometimes you just wanna drink and dance all night long, then light a cigarette with a good friend, talk about all the good and bad stuff in the world, then go to sleep.
St james, here i come, and i aint failing this time.
May 2010
4 posts
My pillars of strength. Without my family and friends, i’m worse off than shit. Although my parents like to quarrel with me for no reason sometimes, and with reason sometimes, of course, you’ll rebel to save face at first, but replay their naggy words once more while youre calm, and you realise they make sense.
Letter to Earth.
Dear Earth,
Please end in 2012. You, are getting more sucky and fucked up every year. You produce assholes who control the prices so much that daily necessities are expensive. You produce geniuses that find out almost everything possible on this earth. So much so, everything is boring. You have theme parks that have no kick. You created this small ass place called Singapore, and allow it to...
I guess we died off. Ha.
Fragile
After reading about a schoolmate that died, i realised how fucking fragile life can be. The only barrier between life and death is so easily broken.
One mistake, and everything is gone in an instant.
Imagine if you had a good friend, you just talked the day before and he or she disappeared from the world the day after. With no notice, goodbyes, or even an explanation.
I can already feel how...
April 2010
3 posts
Ring on me.
Its been torturous. Every morning, every relapse. I dont want this to affect anything or anyone i’ve been with. I pray to the almighty. I pray for help. I need help. But what can save me. God?
Thank you.
Thank you for being with me too. I love you. We’ll last.
Chemistry
You and me, we have some serious shit between us. I should have met my gf earlier la. She’s like the only girl that can tolerate her bf’s guai lan with her own. I love you retard. Like jogging at the reservoir at 6?! And drinking at the riverside. And wtf youre the only girl who can drink that i know of.
Forced by Gf.
Legs. Due to stupidity.
Tard take 1.
Tard take 2.
Tard...
March 2010
6 posts
Never.
If you’re gonna pull back, i’m gonna pull myself towards you more so the distance remains the same.
You run, i chase. You back off, i move towards you. Bo beh zhao.
You’re not just good enough for me. You’re perfect for me.
And the group you made just made me feel that everything i’ve been and done, has gone down to the drain. Like, i give you love, and you give me...
Wah.
Serene yew. Je táime.
I dare you to love me forever and ever.
Till we become old.
And i’ll never let you get wet in the rain. I’ll try.
We’ll have a cake every month.
We’ll watch a thousand movies.
We’ll keep on going to that temple everytime we pass by bugis.
Í’ll ahbeng you at the same spot.
I’ll draw you close to me everytime we’re on an...
If you disappear because of a phone bill gone wrong, you have lived your life in vain.
Life’s a gamble you’ve won.
As long as youre alive, you can change your life.
Life isnt a constant. It doesnt always suck. I was wrong.
If one day, you give up on life, thinking that it can never change, telling yourself you’d rather not be born into this harsh hellhole of a world, you...
Our one month.
So fast one month le. At first, it was just a guai lan comment on a random fb post. Next it was just you talking to me and whining. For one month. Moving on, we had our first outing. Moving on, you stole my heart. After much trying, i caught yours.
Finally, its down to one month. Short, yes. But its gonna lead to many more months to come that we’re gonna spend tgt.
Youre one gl gf. You...
遭天谴
Trying to control this urge, contain it, and maybe quit it.
Gonna look for a new job tmr. Cause i got fired, or i just pang seh them, thats y they fire me. But too bad la, MM was too tiring and i had to work late hours everyday. But i qiang de la. Actually can de. But due to personal reasons like my parents and others who cared for me, i couldnt do this to myself.
I 遭天谴, but i like it.
You...
No.
15.其实说再多，也不过是用一百种方式说，我爱你。
Today, went to meet bby at Bedok polyclinic. She pon school again -.-. With _________.
But she was so angry with me, and yea, i felt kinda helpless. So i left in a kinda fucked up mood. But yea, kj was there to console me.
But in the end, it was all fine. Haha. I love you.
You cannot angree with me anymore kay?
And special thanks to _________, serene’s friend...
February 2010
6 posts
再给我两分钟.
I quit my job as a banquet waiter as of next week and i have a new job.
I guess i’m not suited for this job, i’m prone to doing ot cause the manager is an old man, and i cant let him do the stuff by himself. But dont worry baby, i’ll never ot again, unless i dont have a choice.
I’m sorry if i hurt you last night.
I’ll be the one butchering myself, and taking the...
Rules.
I WAS NEVER A RULES PERSON. BUT I’ll TRY TO FOLLOW ^^
从现在开始你只许疼我一个人 要宠我，不能骗我 答应我的每一件事情你都要做到 对我讲的每一句话都要真心 不许欺负我，骂我; 要相信我 别人欺负我你要在第一时间出来帮我 我开心呢，你就要陪着我开心 我不开心呢，你就要哄我开心 永远都要觉得我是最漂亮的 梦里面也要见到我 在你的心里面只有我。
Je t’aime.
I’ve never quite felt this useless before.
She’s hurting, and i cant do a thing to change it.
But i’ll try, cause her smile is worth everything.
Nostalgia.
Reading my old blog, i remember i was 3E monitor. BODOH SIA. I almost forgot leh. Not bad, i this kind still can be monitor. I wonder why and how i changed so drastically. Its like i Tuo Tai Huan Gu. Btw, i saw Na Heng at ion. And i saw Kia Yong at T1. Talk about coincidence, plus both times were with baby.
(Continued from the post at older blog.)
Its the 18th Valentine’s day i have...
I love you too. No maybes, not just a little. You know i was at that point of my life when i was using work to forget all other things, forget classmates, forget some people, forget who i was, forget what i did. Then you came along, and made me realise life was beautiful. I’m not that strong actually. I get hurt by people easily as well. I’m also human.
You dont have to invade my...
Call the cops.
Today, skipped work to go out with my dear. She brought me to some guai guai places. Haha. Thieves street, where it was so god damn hot, literally. Then we went to Chinatown to eat Taiwanese shaved ice, which tasted cool at first, then i ate and ate till it became hell, and it felt like my whole stomach became a green tea bag.
Next, we went to cineleisure, and watched dr parnassus. It was so...
January 2010
6 posts
Oh Woah Oh.
MERITUS is the 2nd most tiring thing in the world.
1st being part B camp and mt kinabalu, on par.
Meritus Mr bean, Iqbal, just cant get enough of this Malay hunk can you.
Will update more on my workplace.
My beloved guitar.
Next song.
Face down in the dark she said this doesnt hurt.
She said, i finally had enough.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around.
Do you feel better...
If only you did.
My results were not bad. Up to expectation. Will be in TP if anyone needs me for something.
If you guys dont have my number, its 91716832.
Plese dont prank btw, or i go your house and kill your family.
Went over to K box, played pool with some friends.
Wont ever forget how you kept my cold hand warm with yours. Thx HuiLing.
And thx to drunk crazy, haha jkjk, thanks to Alson, who spent a few...
Really.
Like the fact that there are always new beginnings, there must always be an end.
After Monday, it’ll be a new chapter of life. Poly, Jc, or ITE. You and me, we must be mentally prepared.
I like the G chord a lot.
HAHA.
Leather jacket, check. Tuesday will be the start of work for me, thanks to some unforeseen circumstances before this, i quit my job the last time. But of course, i cant leave music hanging around. I’m gonna practise with you all again when i do have the time. I know i’m indispensable. heh. If you outsiders are curious what i’ve been doing, i’ll make a post about it sometime...
Last.
Yep, I’ve gone through the last day of that dreaded year. 2010’s a new year. I dont owe a year to my own stupidness anymore.
So, went to celebrate the countdown with bro, while the rest of my family went for a dinner someplace else. So, we went early to avoid the jam. But ended up playing at crossfire like last year. But this time, we werent gonna celebrate it there any longer cause...
December 2009
5 posts
Time.
Do you know how it feels to be kept on hold, for months, weeks, days. And when you finally get there, what you get is i’m not ready, i’m afraid. It feels great. You broke a promise you made to me. So if i do the same, we’ll be quits.
你要不理我, 我奉陪到底.
New job up, yea, gonna juggle 2 jobs at once. And Taiwan was great. The amount of chiobus is the amt of ppl in singapore. Aiya,...
Bye..
I’m off for Taiwan guys, srry for all appointments and chalets and meetings and biking trips that was cancelled at the last minute cause i forgot. I wonder what Taiwan holds thats fun for me.
The world is my playground.
Well...
What have i been doing this week? Well… Nahma, i climbed a freaking godforsaken mountain and did some water-rafting, and stayed in a hut, with all my brothers.
What happened to be an NYAA trip that i was scammed into turned out to be hell.
Firstly, we stayed in some cheap bodoh hotel called Strawberry Garden Hotel. Fair enough, there were strawberries grown, hence the name. But Nahma, the...
Limits.
I woke up halfway through my sleep just now, because i had a nightmare.
I dreamt that she was right in front of me and i couldnt ever reach her because of my inability to express myself properly. Since young, i’ve never learnt another way to show that i care than to say i love you.
I remember this saying, you like someone using your brain. But you love someone using your heart.
I didnt...
We both go down together.
Gonna leave Singapore for Malaysia next Monday with Delta 08. We gonna climb Mt Kinabalu. Do you know, that out of a thousand ppl that climbs mt k, twelve ppl die of mountain sickness. Wish us good luck. Hope someone bothers to save me if i die. Haha, thats always the case during Ncc.
And after that, I’m going off to Taiwan till the 27th. See all you asses in Singapore. Hope you all forget...
November 2009
5 posts
Last christmas.
Someone always hurts me during christmas.
I’m sorta prepared for Santa to make someone hurt me again, Since i’m always on his damn naughty list.
Haha, lets hope I dont spend this christmas drinking again.
The art museum was actually nice. But some ass had to ruin it. -.- I bet its the stupidest thing you’ve done you tard....
I'm a tard.
I dont know when i started worrying about people.
Maybe you unblocked a bloodclot in my brain or sumthing.
Come back in one piece my dear.
TeeHageEhhAnnKayAss.
Woots, Thanks to all that came for my “surprise party” last saturday.
Thanks to Ying xuan ,Su Wern, Josephine, Victor, Kai Liang, Tweens, Kiaqian, Lian kai, Swee yang, Qi xin, Samuel, Shang bo, Wilfred And his family.
That was one of the best and weirdest birthdays ever.
Btw, Fuck you sb for putting wadever fuck that bitter thing was on my face.
Mfck i’mma shit on your face...
Peace.
“Drop pants not bombs; break dance not hearts; condoms are cheaper than guns; make love not war.” Make the world a fucking peaceful place. Fuck all you political bastards who want war day by day.
I wish you’d just fucking tell me what i am to you.
Pain.
“A paperclip heart is beautiful and all, but with no pain, it’ll end up looking like shit.”
Everything has to go through pain and hardwork to end up beautiful and done.
Even god had to work to create Earth.
So what’s pain. If god went through it, he’d make it a universal feeling.
That sucks, the world sucks, but.
Pain, with no pain, there’d be more wars...
October 2009
7 posts
Do.
Ha, no matter what, its your decision.
I love you, thats all there is to it.
And love is all i can give.
If yoú would be happier with someone else, go for it. He deserves you a million times more than i do.
Your smile, is worth more than whatever i have.
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Why.
What do you mean why?
Its simple, even if i’m single right now. I wont ever like you anymore. I once did. Yeah. I admit it. A lot.
I dont wanna hurt you, i dont wanna break your heart.
You say you dont mind. But have you considered my feelings?
If i hurt you, i’ll feel bad.
I’m selfish, yes.
But you know what you did.
You initiated the damn break for fuck’s sake.You...
The End.
Tomorrow, its officially the end of part 3 of our lives.
Fuck that. And Kudos to that.
Seriously man. Fuck Ahs, and all you motherfking losers who think its a good and cool school. I’ll miss the stall aunties, Ben Tan, the NCC store, and Jie han however.
希望他是真的比我还要爱你, 我才会逼自己离开.
If i’m the sun, you’ll be the moon, i’ll shine my light at you, and you can refect it at...
Imagine.
Imagine there’s no heaven It’s easy if you try No hell below us Above us only sky Imagine all the people Living for today…
Imagine there’s no countries It isn’t hard to do Nothing to kill or die for And no religion too Imagine all the people Living life in peace…
You may say I’m a dreamer But I’m not the only one I hope someday you’ll join us...
Reality.
O levels, imagine, all you’ve been studying for since primary school.
The stress is settling in.
How the hell do those bastard triple science nerds do so bloody well. What do their parents feed them that we dont have -.- and what do they have that we dont -.- Maybe the only difference is hard work.
Study leave, self given gives you a sense of freedom, to complete your ten yr series. And...
Excavation of emotions.
I did two packs in a week.
Hows that.
I dont wanna die like that retard who does shisha.
But i cant bring myself to move everytime i think of you.
The smoke numbs me from inside out so my heart doesnt affect my brain.
I hate it when i know we have something there but i cant do a shit about it.